Hello students this is Seema here  and  once again we are going to do another interesting lesson from your textbook English textbook that is you are right baby now why do I say it’s going to be interesting students because it brings about a very important dimension of that one very important person of your life that is your mother so it tells us about a very, very important and very common character trait of a mother that is the aspect of guilt the guilt of a mother now why does a mother express guilt in this lesson let’s take a look at it in the summary ahead so this is a lesson that brings out the guilt and the anguish the pain of a mother who leaves her nine-year-old daughter Anandita are in the hands of made to be able to attend a party with her husband so she’s going for a party leaving her nine-year-old daughter it also brings out the pain or the sorrow of a child and her reaction in the form of crying and throwing a tantrum the next morning the child seems to have forgotten everything about it but the guilt in the heart of the mother continues to be there so we are now going to see how a mother expresses her guilt in this lesson so let us start the lesson which is in the form of a letter so the mother is expressing the guilt in the form of a letter she writes a letter and whom does she write this letter to you can see there the date April 99 Mumbai and this is in the year nineteen ninety nine and she addresses it to Anandita she says dear Anandita so who is Anandita .it is the name of the writers nine-year-old daughter so She expresses her feelings through this letter probably of course she’s not going to give the letter immediately to her but students this is written by Shobha dey a very famous writer and a columnist in our newspapers and you know this is a collection of letters actually that she had written to her children so it’s a collection and this is one of those letters where she expresses a guilt on having left her daughter and gone for a party so let’s go ahead with the letter last night you cried in hour maybe longer so she says you She refers  to Anandita  over here the word you refers to an Anandita as the writer is writing it to her. her daughter Anandita so she says that is here the writer a mother recalls or remembers the events of the previous night when she had been to a party and a nine-year-old daughter Anandita had cried as she did not want her mother to leave so she continues to write I could still here your sobs as the car pulled out and we arranged our expressions suitably for the party ahead now I could still hear your sobs so who’s the I students clear the mother that is Shobha dey the writer the mother who is writing the letter sobs is to beep or to cry uncontrollably the car pulled out the card was taken out of the carriage  so she says I could still hear you now you is the daughter Anandita  is the writer Shobha dey and we refers to one Anandita’s parents that is the writer and a husband because both of them are going for the party so arranged that expression suitably for the party very nice line students this brings out that the mother was actually not feeling up to it was not feeling happy about going to the party which he had to fake her emotions they adjusted their expression to suit the occasion she couldn’t go to the party with that sadness with that guilt on her face so she had to adjust the expression students we do that when we go out when you go for work when you go to school there may be a lot of things that are going on in the mind but we have to change our expressions according to the occasion that is exactly what she did so she says she still remembers how a little girl had cried uncontrollably the mother to was sad but she had to put on fake expressions to suit the party now my evening was ruined so was yours now ruined means spoiled or destroyed so she says that her evening the mother says that her evening to us spoiled  just like a daughter Anandita does evening was spoiled so though she had gone for the party though she tried to fake the emotions and put on expressions to show how to happen is she was not happy she was very very sad her evening had been completely spoiled just like the daughters evening had been spoiled this shows that though mother had to go to the party her heart was with her daughter who had cried uncontrollably this is the greatness of a mother students and we all know that how much our mothers lovers maybe we don’t you know understand that immediately but it is later when you realize all the sacrifices that she had made of course this time she goes for the party but her heart is still with the daughter now I should have stayed home and comforted you I should have done this students see the guilt that she feels she should not have done what she did she expresses that she should have stayed back and comforted her to sooth the daughter because she was crying so much so she says something was obviously wrong for you of all the children to have staged that tantrum now obviously it was very clear that there was something wrong it was clearly understood that something was wrong to have staged to have demonstrated to have shown that tantrum now tantrum is a fit of bad temper so she says that this girl Anandita of all the children had shown at Tantrum  and I should have stayed back to find out what was wrong it was so unlike your normal behavior when you watch me dress and then cheerfully wave bye-bye so the mother regrets that she had not stayed back with a daughter as it was not a normal behavior that day she felt their that must have been some problem with a daughter that day see your students normal behavior so what does this tell us we can actually imply that Anandita  normal behavior was different to what was it all right Anandita  are normally we have the cheerful by by whenever her mother left her to go for a party that day she was behaving abnormally now another line something was obviously wrong for you of all the children to have staged that tantrum what does this tell us this line indicates that the line shows that Anandita siblings used to regularly throw tantrums generally they would throw tantrums siblings have brothers and sisters were generally cry whenever the mother went out not Anandita. Anandita  l never threw a tantrum so she was different from the other children and that is why when that day she was crying the mother felt she should have stayed back to find out what was wrong .I didn’t get the chance to find out what was bothering you bothering you troubling you the moment was then while the tears were fresh while your face was flushed why you pleaded and begged me not to go so she says that I should have stopped and found out what was bothering you troubling you and when at that moment it is no point asking you later it is no point asking you today I should have waited back at that moment and asked what was wrong when you were crying when your face was flushed it was red with sorrow with sadness with anger with tears you know in small children cry a lot to become completely red so the mother said that at that time you were crying your face was flushed and you were begging for me not to go but I went ahead I should have waited and seen what was wrong so she regrets her actions of going to a party in spite of the fact that her daughter was crying endlessly she says she feels she should have waited back when Anandita  was crying uncontrollably and immediately found out what was troubling her so at that moment she was should have found out not later see the regret again students and this regret we shall see in the rest of the letter we have seen how the mother talks about having gone for a party and a child was crying and even in the party she’s still thinking about the child so let’s see what is there in store for us in the next models